“This morning when I awoke, I lay there for an extra half hour. It was partially due to laziness and partially due to my drifting thoughts. I was, of course, thinking of you. Wondering what you were doing at that very moment, thinking back to our conversation last night, thinking about the last weekend and the time we shared together. In all this thinking I came to realize how much happier I am with you than in a very long time. Although I frequently complain about our so-called boring life, it’s comforting to have the stability of us. It’s embarrassingly difficult to write an emotion filled letter such as this, but I want to memorialize my feeling because I don’t share them with you enough. I think I’ll hide these letter in random places for you, so that you may get a special surprise when you least expect it. As you can probably tell, I am writing this freehand with mistakes and all. Please excuse the spelling errors, punctuation mistakes, and grammatical problems. Back to us, your comment about actions speaking more than words ring true to me too. I have difficulty expressing my thoughts and emotions verbally, as you well know. I hope you know and can tell from my actions how I feel. It scares me to know how deeply I care about you. Maybe this is the reason I don’t tell you. The stronger my feelings, the greater the potential of getting hurt. But I truly trust you and know you would never deliberately do so. Thank you for all that you are, all that you do, and for being with me.”
“…..This weekend is particularly exciting because it’s our 6 month anniversary, although the first few months of that time was more as ‘acquaintances’. It’s always more fun to celebrate anniversaries and other holidays together. I really hope we will be together for many more holidays. Although it’s quite difficult to think of an appropriate gift for you. I will think harder and hopefully come up with a great idea. You really surprised me this week with that sweet email on Monday. I was really touched by the words and thoughts and feelings you put into the email. It was especially sweet because it was so unexpected. I think the best gifts are unexpected random ones because it shows that you care all the time. When I think of all the little things you do to make my life so much better, I feel very guilty for not doing more. I wish you or, I hope you know that I appreciate you. You are the best thing in my life right now. If I’m unhappy I just think of you and everything gets that much better.”
“I’ve never written to you on a Sunday before. It’s nice to sit here and reflect on all the great memories we have created this past weekend. Even the tiniest details leave a lasting impression in my mind. I carry these thoughts closely….Thank you for every second, every moment we share together. And to answer your question, I am happy, happier than I can remember in a very long time, and it’s because of you.”
“I found this lone piece of stationary in my bag of Asian ‘cute’ paper. I am taking a break from cleaning my clothes to write and say hi. I want to call and hear your voice but I don’t want to disturb you….I am almost done with this letter and haven’t said anything substantive. I am making a mental note to myself to be very nice and good tempered this weekend because I want to make up for my bad behavior last weekend.”
“Thank you so so much for making my birthday complete. A birthday cake and candles were more than anything I could dream of. For the first time in my life, I’ve finally found someone who really understand and care for me. You’re more than what I could ask for….”
“Happy Valentines Day!…I’ve always wished and hoped that one day I would find my mate, someone to hold me tight, love me, and someone I would love. I ask myself, you ask me, and even my friends ask me if I love you. To say no would be lying and how can I lie to someone I love? Now you know…I miss you when we’re apart, and I love you when we’re together.”
music by: A Fine Frenzy – Almost Lover
Golly, how sweet….so much memories…